In which Benj returns, after long silence

Yesterday was very hard but kind of beautiful. It was heartening to see so, so many people come through that door, all because they remembered James with love and respect.
There were some touching speeches by some wounded, wondrous people.
I cried quite a lot. I talked to a lot of people. I didn't talk to some, of which I'm not proud.
It still feels as sad, but it doesn't feel as dreadful.